if i never cared. i wld not have NOT let you go n when i said no, u keep calling me bitch all.
so wat the hell la.
helped u n e next night u show attitude.
so i told mummy.
cuz i cannot control u, cuz u nv listen to me
i know u helped me b4, dun tell me i have never helped u ever.
you can turn ur back on me but dun do it to ur parents.
you're only 14 years old.
its even wrong to ask to go out at 3 ok?
mummy also scolded me for letting u go.
i knew that was coming.
but i had to tell her, not get you in trob on purpose.
see? u always think i purposely wan to get u into trouble.
you dunno tat because u are the youngest,
I N SEAN gets it too.
that means we get into trouble together.
you can love ur frens, i love mine too.
but they have their families too.
if u leave home one day, u can stay with them for days,
after tat where do u go?
you have to come home. cuz u urself know tats the right place
even when u hate it. or think e ppl there hate you.
you do know tat, but u are being stubborn to see it.

i am not perfect.
infact,everything i do there's smt wrong.

see? let u go also wrong. dun let also wrong.

i rather u not look up to me.

and if u wanted a sister, u better start listening first
help fold clothes when i am working.
dun use ur hp so much cuz u still have bill to pay
(n not only yours also)
stop behaving like a ah lian.
you think u are not, but take another look at the mirror
den look at those YOU call ah lians.
den look back at the mirror.
and study hard, dun be stupid like me to fail o levels
den must repeat all. den the father not happy all
den whole family upset.
dun repeat my mistakes.

thats smt to do if u wan to be a good sister.

and stop that temper. rmb, the whole family has.
n you being the youngest, u realised it last.
so dun play temper with us. thats sucks.
n the reason why i nv buy for u present all,
is cuz u always make me angry when i want to buy.
sean dun disturb me. sometimes when he makes me angry,
i treat him the same. so pls dun compare ok.
you know wat i did when my temper starts.
i think one disaster in the family is enuff.
there's no need for three.

so pls dun think your family hates you,
infact we were proud when u pass chinese all.
cuz look at me n sean.
but no, u dun see that. u only see bad things.
but i dun blame you cuz i also only show bad things.
so ya.




and if u really want me to be an older sister,
you have to be the younger one first wat.
or else u will think i boss u ard when i ask u for smt.
and thats cuz u think u have the right to.
so avlyn, if u wan me to be an elder sister,
i can't promise to be the best cuz of mistakes i have done before
but i can if u listen to me n sean too.
and mummy, cuz she loves u too.
n u shld realise tat.
shouting at her makes her cry at night.
you dunno cuz u sleep at night.
i don't.



and one more thing,

no boy who loves you wld ask u out at 3am.

thats damn too much.
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