I can shine too, someday!

Friday, January 26, 2007 @ Friday, January 26, 2007

everything's not alright.
i hate my father.
i really do.
i don't have one any longer.
from this afternoon onwards.
i don't care what anyone says.
i don't have such a father
who calls his daughter a SLUT.
what the fuck.
who the hell does he think he is.
i don't wan to cry abt it.
i won't. cuz i know i am not one.

and who can guess WHY he called me tat?
cuz i was wearing a new billabong sleeveless t.
my breasts cld not be seen! wat the fuck la.
like tat also cannot. everything also CANNOT.
such a fucked up worthless man.
i have nv hated anyone like tat before.

he'll never change.
never ever.
and i'll never change.
i'll hate him forever.

he looks down on all my friends.
i dunno what they do to him!
i wish i can tell him that
even though we don't all stay tgt.
they have been there for me more than he has!

when i turn 18.
i want to bring my mom,bro n sis
away from him.
i'm not going to let him raise him hands or voice.
or throw books at us.
or come back moody n make everyone angry.
& spoil our day. and make us shift things ard.
and always making the house messy.
because he does things here n there.
i won't let him hurt me anymore.

i'm the eldest right?
you scold me for everything.
EVERYTHING FUCKING FUCK.
even when i'm not wrong.
why?? becuse YOU always THINK YOU are RIGHT!
i can't stand the sight of you.
and i'm gg to tolerate it till i'm old enough.