I can shine too, someday!

Wednesday, September 27, 2006 @ Wednesday, September 27, 2006

my art piece is due in 2 days.
im in major shit.
i only just started on my board!
im missing classes tmr so i can complete it.
damn it. haha.
someone help me!!

deon's birthday party is on friday.
wat shall i wear?
wat shall i get her? haha.
i only need the money!
ive been skipping recess from mon.
i'm totally broke!
oh yeahhhh!!
can't wait to eat yummy bbq food!

ness-honestly! when have u cared abt ME?
you say you were on the way,
but look wat u did.
i nv put words in ur mouth...
you nv even said much abt this friendship.
when i asked you on the phone,
did you REPLY me?
NO! u just kep silent abt it!
how do u think i felt?!
im so sick n tired too.
and i was the one who tried to be there for you.
you say youre tired n irritated.
tell me la, when have YOU needed me?
you can run to any other person.
just dun use them or hurt them,
and i didn't ruin this friendship.
if i didn't want it,
i would NOT have talked to you abt us.
i would NOT have wanted you to be happy.
i would NOT have ran to meet u when u called.
i would NOT be angry right now.
i would NOT let you count on me.
i would NOT care or love YOU.
i would NOT have called you.
i would NOT cry for you.

but look wat you say?
you don't care.
cause you dun need me.
i ain't SPECIAL like him.
if you really cared,
you would have called or msg
like hw you do to him when HE
ignores you.
dun lie to me anymore.
i was the one waiting for you.
not you.
i shall NOT anymore,
cuz you dun need me.
thats the truth.
but it dun mean i
want it to end like this.
but youve made it clear now.
you don't want me anymore.
so i'm sorry.

goodbye. take care.

amanda,christie,audrey
i'm sorry. i hope you girls wont be upset.
its ok. take care of her.
atleast i have you girls no matter wat.
i know tat. cuz i dun wanna lose you
and you dun wanna lose me! haha.
i love you three.
i mean it.
you know you have me!
ALWAYS.