Such a long Saturday it was...

Went for a 3hr job with Shamala to earn some cash.. Then headed to Godson's Zachary 1st Month party.. Ended up staying there pretty late.. And then met with Stephanie Hogan! It has been too long... Hahah! So much fun...

She's getting married so looks like I have to go shopping to see what I will wear! Yay! :)









With the family at mandai for Qing Ming festival .. As Catholics we still respect out relatives religion and in our hearts we pray for their souls and ask our lord to have mercy on them.. Here's some pictures
of the morning! :)

Sean boy couldn't be there as he was in Thailand for SAF work! :(

















Mum & I went for Divine mercy Chaplet & mass today at Divine mercy Church in Singapore.. I've been devoting to the novena since Good Friday and am very pleased with myself... I know I could have Done more.. So I will continue to improve myself...

Divine mercy touched my heart and I know my sins have been forgiven... And I am filled with my Saviour's Mercy! Thank you lord! ❤

Jesus, I trust in you!







Today is my popo's 73rd birthday!
I'm so happy she's still around in my life..
I don't know how long more she will be in my life but I am so thankful and grateful to God for my grandparents...

They were the reason I got to go to Sydney as well.. They sacrificed so much for me and I love them alot!

It pains me to see them growing old and weaker each passing day... I can't imagine the day when I won't be able to see them or talk to them or hold them...

I pray to God that if it is in his will they will be able to attend my wedding healthy and strong...

Thank you father for another wonderful day! <3

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It would have been brave of me to tell you,

Be mine, again.



There are nights like tonight where I will fall asleep with a smile on my face. Where I feel like that little girl with ribbons in her neatly combed hair, the sweetest pink dress and shiny black shoes with white sockings..

This little girl holds her Saviour's hands as He leads the way.

I love you my Jesus. <3


I'm happy we are on a good start.. Talking.

I have hope, faith and love.
But I also have fear.

I almost saw you yesterday with the boys under my block.

And I thank god I didn't, I'm not sure if I'm ready. But I miss you..

I'm back home, Singapore.

I don't know what to expect.
All I know is When I left this island, I was a mess.

All I know now is I'm stronger. I can do this.

And after all the things I've done, I know that if I see you again, I may crumble. I may... Because I could never stop loving you...

Praying for Strength.

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Sometimes I wonder who am I kidding?
Myself.

Of course I still miss you.
Every single day.

What should I do? :(

As bad as it was,
As bad as it hurt...
I thank God I didn't get what I thought that I deserved,
Cause sometimes Life,
Leads you down a different road..
When you're holding on to someone that you gotta let go...
Someday you'll see the reason why.
Sometimes, there's good in GOODBYE.

Oh my my,
today i found out something about you.
something you did, something you own.

and oh my my,
what a fool ive been..
cause today I finally realise,

you are not worth any more of my time.
you had so many years of me.
and it is over.
forever.

Enjoy your ride, bike.

Sometimes, it doesnt pay to be nice. Ill be regarded as an extra. as a person who shouldnt have came. EVERYONE thinks that of me. What did I do wrong? Seriously, say something and Im Bitchy, Rude, and all crap. BUT if someone says back to YOU, you complain about it all the time. Ask me get out of your privacy and all. IF i had known I was such a nuisance, I WOULDNT have come!!!! I NEVER wanted to make anyone suffer. I know how it feels. ive been suffering for so many fucking years already. IM VERY TIRED TOO. Im trying to make my life better. Im so so so pissed off.

SHOULD I LEAVE!!!! EVEN if i want to, i cant, ive given too much for this. When they told me i could come and they would help me, i thought they were serious about it. Had i known that i had to share a room with her and take away her privacy i really shouldnt have applied. I was also expecting my own room. Because they had said they had a extra room before. WTF would i want to share a room with someone, IVE been sharing it all my life. SUCH a brat! Such rudeness. not even me. Look how old she is and they way she talks back to her parents and siblings. Yes she has her nice side but most days she acts like a spoilt brat. I try to tolerate her so much. I try, no one but me know how much i tried but she doesnt see it becasuse all she sees is her getting HER WAY. its always been that way growing up. I know how she feels because she has said it to my  face, She's so rude.
Everyone feels im ok here but no one knows how much i am also suffering, i already feel so useless that im not able to pay for alot of things myself and be able to help aunty n uncle for all they are doing for me. Im so lost, im so hurt. Shes's so rude, I try to be her friend and talk to her nicely, listen to music we both like and talk to her like an adult, but all she does is take advantage...

im so tired.

I've made up my mind.

Once I start work I shall put aside money for my dream to volunteer with orphanges and contribute my time as a catholic.

I'm so gonna do it.

Got ma first Taylor Swift Album with my own money!!!!!!

I feel so fly! Oh yeah

RED. :))

Oh i, oh i, im not even trying.

DO you think about me like I think about you...
Sometimes i wonder if you wonder, when you're having your beer.

I cant stop smiling,
I do think about you.

Thank you all for the lovely wishes for my 23rd birthday!

To Tiffany, Corinne & Sarah for spraying me with pink string crap as i came home from school, for decorating my room with pink ribbons and the presents and making chicken pie dinner and my pink sparkly cake!!! Thank you girls for dressing up and putting on "GREASE" and singing along! So much fun!!! Hahha :)

It has been a birthday I'll never ever forget! ❤❤❤

Thank you God for the amazing day today, the weather was the most perfect!

Love,
Lexineeeeeee :)

This Lent 2012,

I have decided to follow in Brother Jovita's footsteps and fast from Facebook from Ash Wednesday to Holy Saturday. I want to do this because I want to become closer to God,

after all ive been thru,
he's been the only one there for me, truly. And i ask that everyone around me help me in ways they can to continue in my journey. Ive also decided to attend Novena every saturday and pray the rosary every tuesday with my family.

Amen.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!
its definitely a new year for me! IM DONE WITH 2012!!

making new plans for my future! I pray it all works out well! :)

Want ? Need?

Which is which and what do I choose?

Maybe everyone is right.
Walk away from you.

I know.. I know I'll be alone.
But I'm strong. I can do this.

I don't want you.

Christmas is coming.

What will it be like this year?
It's a whole new year....
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